It's amazing how adding one tiny human can suddenly make me feel like "I've accomplished something" when everyone gets breakfast before 10am. Or we are all in clean, non-pajama clothes before Daddy gets home from work. Or maybe it's great that I had time to load the dishawasher AND do a load of laundry.
Suddenly, going for a walk - an outing that I have always enjoyed - seems wrought with so many "barriers" and obstacles...and a checklist of diapers, soothers, blankets, snacks, hats, etc. Inevitably, by the time we are all loaded up, someone is unhappy and crying and no amount of walking will calm them. Why did it seem hard before?
But I'm learning.
Right now my days are calm and quiet; no major plans or outings scheduled (unless I want them to be). I am trying to be brave and "get out there" more...I have to get used to it at some point!
And my kids are learning too. They are seeing the value of how when they obey, Mommy is proud of them. They are learning to be older siblings and "big helpers". They are handling the new addition very well and I couldn't be happier about that - but I feel like it's me. I'm having trouble getting myself in a routine.
And I know it takes time.
And patience.
And organization.
I can do it. It's just that most days it seems easier to not.
Some pictures of my new family are coming - just as soon as I find the cord thingy...
Psalms Week 1 : An Introduction
3 years ago
You will learn sometime but it will be a gradual thing- no need to get out there more if you don't want to. The time will come soon enough when you will be out there all the time- with no more babes and no more good reasons to stay in and savour. I think it's brave to just be in the stage you are in.
ReplyDeleteyou are such an amazing mother. It's tough with three. Enjoy what there is to enjoy yet acknowledge the plain old sucky side:)
Lots of love:)