What does it mean to say "I'm done"? What does that feel like? Look like? Is it even our decision? I truly believe that if we are supposed to have more, the One who gave me the freedom to decide, would make that known to us...
And, is it selfish for me to weigh the pros and cons between 3 or 4, when some struggle and wait for just 1?
I was surrounded by lovely, bulging/swollen bellies this past weekend. Dear friends all at different stages of pregnancy and family. One is awaiting her first; one her second; and one her third. They were radiant, glowing, exhausted, sore, uncomfortable....but all with such love and maternal expectation in their eyes.
We have said no to that. We are content with the sweet family we have been given.
And yet.....I will miss it.
I will miss the moving in my belly, the battle of the perfect name, the excitement of new life and anticipation of sweet babe.
The smell of them seconds after they arrive...
Maybe the yearning never goes away.
Maybe it is their to constantly remind us of the great, awesome and overwhelming gift we have been given.